sapphiresays I felt inspired to do this after seeing @thrillsoftomorrow post 💗 but 2018 has probably been the toughest year of my life. I started the year being diagnosed with really bad depression and anxiety. My depression got so bad that I would spend weeks in bed not wanting to move or see anyone, I would sleep so much because I didn’t want to be awake, I couldn’t catch up on tv shows because my mind was in such a horrible place that I couldn’t concentrate. My anxiety became a major problem too, which meant I couldn’t get on any public transport without running off at some point and having a massive meltdown, If I ever got a train I would call a friend to take my mind off things and make me feel somewhat more at ease. This whole year was me just not wanting to be alive and I was just existing. I felt sensitive to everything, I didn’t feel good enough for anyone I still do. My heart is so in love with one person that it tears me apart. The rich thing is everyone tells you to own up about your mental health and tell you to talk to someone but as soon as you do you’re seen as “attention seeking” you never win. That’s why I have always kept my depression hidden from here. I’ve lost friends along the way because people thought I was “selfish” the way I’ve been, but it’s hard when you’re so low in life you don’t know what you’re living for. Sorry for this massive caption but I want to be truthful and show that Instagram will always show the highlights not how people really feel. And I’m showing how my year has deffo had its ups and downs, but I’m still here today. My aim for 2019 is to start the year with more positive energy and focusing on the positives of my life not the negatives and making a difference. But I don’t believe in New Years resolutions, I believe you should start every goal whenever, don’t wait, just do it... And honestly I’m here for everyone and anyone who ever needs someone to talk to and feel less low, we are all in this together ✨✨✨ • • There’s so much more I wish I could say but maybe I will have to save it for a blog post, but I want to say thank you to everyone in my life that helped me be stronger💗 📸: @vbarrell_photography